Who am I?

I recently joined a direct sales company. I've never thought myself as "one of those people". This company just made sense to me so I joined. They recently went on their yearly trip that you can win a spot in for doing your job. They have been posting pictures and telling stories and it looks like it was a lot of fun!

There is this voice in the back of my head as I look at their smiling faces, that keeps saying, "Look at them. You don't belong among them. Just like you never fit in, in any group in school. That isn't for you. You were born poor, you married poor, and you are still poor. Life is meant to be hard and change is too scary. It's safer to just sit and be who are you. The stars are too far away, stop trying to reach them."
You ever hear this voice in your head? It makes me sad. How does it make you feel? I don't want to listen. I dream of a different life style. A life where I don't have to worry come the first of the month how we are going to make the bills. A life with fun and laughter. Trips to fun places more than every 5 years. A life where if I see someone else struggling I can help them. A life that is different in some aspects for my children than what I had.
Then I have to ask myself, what am I willing to sacrifice to obtain this life? What are the things holding me back? The false ideas and traditions that keep me from reaching the potential I see in my mind? We all have them. Those thoughts of fallacy that keep us grounded, rooted to the same old thing day in and day out. Our safety net. Our comfort zone.